Welcome to my life. Unlike many other people I am not going to sit here and post pictures of delicious food, baby animals, or cute little quotes in order to get followers. This blog is basically my diary, I post here when I need to rant or when I really want to remember a happy memory. I can't promise that it's the most interesting thing in the world, but I can promise that it is real. I don't see the point in pretending to be something that I'm not in order to gain approval from others. If I'm going to make friends, I want them to be people that like me for me. Anyways, I hope you enjoy wandering through the many crazy events of my life.
By the way, my name's Lynsey! I love chatting so send me a message once and a while. (^ - ^)
This Summer…
I am going to work out and run like crazy until I finally feel attractive in the style that I love. ♥
Dear Mom,
I wish I could still say that you are like a mom to me. Honestly, you’re becoming a stranger…
I know that we can both admit that we have never had that close of a relationship, but now I honestly don’t even know who you are. It’s like you’re trying to be a teenager again.
I understand that you want to still have fun and enjoy life, but you can’t forget that you have kids. My brothers are still young, they need you.
First of all, you can’t go out to restaurants every day with your boyfriend and expect us to somehow find food in the house when you go grocery shopping once a month. I don’t know if you’ve forgotten, but Nick doesn’t have a job so he can’t really buy himself food. Then there’s Kyle, have you forgotten that he’s only 12?! You can’t keep letting him walk all over town by himself to get himself something to eat. It’s very dangerous, especially since he’s small. I mean honestly, is it that big of a deal to actually buy us food once and a while? You go out shopping and gambling all the time so ‘not having any money’ can’t be your fucking excuse anymore.
Then there’s the whole homework thing…. You let Nick sit in his room all day playing video games and never check on him. How do you know he’s actually doing well in school? Do you ever even ask him? How do you know he’s not failing? Then Kyle… He’s a completely different story. He’s bad at school and we all know that. You have to be patient with him while you’re trying to help him. But from what I’ve seen, you care more about your iPad mini and the TV than about his grades. Telling him that you won’t help him with his homework because “your show” is on is fucking bullshit. No TV program is more important that my little brother. He needs help! If he fails then I hope the teachers come after you, because somebody needs to shove it into your thick skull that you’re his mother.
Then lastly… There’s me. I don’t know if you know this, but I am still your daughter. I may be growing up but you should still care for me. After a while, knowing that you honestly don’t care about me or my happiness begins to hurt. Do you even still fucking love me?! You let Jason sit there and call me fat and lazy. You tell me that after I move out I’m not allowed to come back. When I try to talk to you, you always tell me that you are doing something more important… Then when I finally get a chance to be around you, you just try to control my life and we end up screaming at each other.
It kills me knowing that you don’t care about me anymore. But honestly I don’t want you to even worry about it, because it’s too late. Just please don’t forget that you have two young boys living here that need a mom.
Man, I Love Him ♥
Chandler: To me our love for each other is the most amazing and the most special thing in the world to me I have never felt this way before my heart is always beating at 100 beats a min I get goosebumps whenever I see you because I’m so stunned by your beautiful was. Your skin is always so perfect and soft. Your hair is always so beautiful and shinning. Your laugh makes my heart sing. Your voice is the most amazing thing in the world. Your heart is the most special thing to me because I know it’s mine an I won’t ever break it or hurt it I will cherish you till I stop breathing. You are the most important thing in my life ♥
Just Imagine..
Living another person’s life.
Never meeting all of the friends that you know now.
Never creating the memories that you already have.
Now… Think about how many times you have said that you hate your life. Would living somebody else’s life really be worth letting go of all of the wonderful things that you just thought about? Please, just give it a thought. You only have one life to live, so please cherish it.
Eating At Work
I’m so glad I gave up eating our beef and french fries…. I was tired of feeling like a fat cow all the time.
Stupid Crazy Bitch…
Some woman came back to McDonald’s today accusing me of stealing her credit card and sat in our drive thru for 20 minutes, refusing to move. She ended up leaving in tears after my manager reasoned with her and took down her information. The customers behind her were pissed!!
What He Said To Me ♥
Him- “Heheh well I love that we both love decorating stuff I love it so much that we were bestfriends first (: holding your hands mean so much to me babe. Your hands are so tiny I love it mine fits perfect over yours (: god baby we are so perfect for each other it’s amazing. Lights before Christmas will be amazing I’m going to have you wear my coat so it’s nice and toasty for you(: and after ill make us some hot chocolate and we can cuddle by the fire (: cuddling with you is one of the most amazing things ever my heart always beats so fast babe. God I’m so Inlove with you pleas stay with me(: Your eyes are so pretty I always find myself getting lost in them all the time”
I love him so much. After everything we went through…. I just can’t let this go. He’s my best friend and the guy that I fell in love with. ♥
This is my wonderful boyfriend and I at Wildwood on our second/ third date. ^^ (We can’t decide if our date where I paid for everything should count… Haha.) We spent the date looking at animals through the observing window and walking along our favorite path. When we got to our usual bench he carved our initials and the date into the wood along the edge. This is only one of the many reasons why I think that he is one of the sweetest guys that I have ever had the privilege to call mine. When I’m with him, I finally feel safe and accepted. I feel like no matter how much I fall apart, I will always have him there to pick up the pieces and put me back together. Plus, for once in my life, I don’t feel so alone. We’ve had a few problems in the past, and occasionally we bicker, but in the end we are always able to work things out. He is my Westley, my Will Turner, and my Panda Bear. ♥ I love him to death and I can’t wait to make more memories with him.
So, I Like This Boy.
Problem is, I may hurt the guy I used to like in the process… This sucks.
The Correct Response To, “I Want Real Food”…
Is not, “There’s stuff in the freezer.”
I’m sorry, but premaid crap that comes in bags and boxes is not ‘real’ food. I can’t make a meal out of bags of chips, frozen food, candies, and condiments. There are no fruits, veggies, or even a loaf of bread in this fucking house. I’m done, I don’t care what my mother says. I’m getting my own mini fridge and buying my own groceries.
